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I’ve been giving my friends advice all night so I feel like giving some more advice. You can ask me literally anything and I’ll answer to the best of my abilities. (Bi)sexuality, depression, anxiety, friends, boy/girlfriends, whatever.
Ask me!
I am getting so sick of being told that what I want in life isn’t realistic. That my hopes and dreams are things to laugh at and brush off. I’m tired of hearing “But what is your real plan?”
My creativity is the only good thing that comes out of my tortured mind. My own head sabotages me on a daily basis, fails to let me see the light even when there is plenty. But it can create. It has visions that I can turn into films. It holds words I can turn into novels. It hides pain I can channel into acting.
I know how many artists are out there struggling. But it isn’t a choice. To me, it is the only thing that makes sense in life.
So here’s to all beautiful creative minds,
Please don’t stop creating.
The person I once was is gone
The pain I feel is indescribable
I can’t move
All I can do is lay around,
Stare at the ceiling
I want to claw my body open
It is itching and screaming
I feel like I’m going to throw up
Or pass out
Why?
Why me?
Why my mom?
Why my family?
My mind, body and soul are lined by scars
I can appreciate the balance to that
I don’t remember what once was
So great about life
What is the appeal?
I lost my appetite
(Disclaimer: This is catered mostly towards friends and people you really know. If you see a stranger struggling, of course, a text/tweet/dm is amazing)
It deeply, deeply saddens me to see how selfish people are these days. When you see someone struggling, I’m begging you, please reach out to them. It is so incredibly important. I personally don’t understand when people say they ‘don’t know what to do’, since there are so many ways to do something. Anything. But since so many people do say that, I thought I would share some things that I would immediately think of doing.
• Real life human contact is always the most comforting, so first try to see them. Come over to their house if they don’t want to go outside themselves. Sleep over if the nights are the worst. Suggest doing something fun, like seeing a movie if you and they feel like that could be good for them. Even just swinging by to give a big hug can do wonders.
• If they don’t feel like seeing anyone, or it is too much for you to be there in person. Call. They might not pick up but that doesn’t matter. The worst thing you can do is text, there is nothing less personal than that. It takes no effort and they will feel that. So try calling, or facetiming. (If you can’t reach them of course text, but don’t just text.)
• Now some ideas that don’t even require you to do anything if you refrain from taking the steps above because you don’t know what to say or how to comfort them.
• Send them something. Send them a good book, comfort food, a letter or even just a little note, a card, flowers, a dvd/cd. If you don’t want to spend any money, just send them something you have (like a book/cd/dvd etc you own). If you do, however, have some money to spend you can get so creative with this. Like, send them merch from their favorite band/artist, anything that really is personal to them.
• Give them something to look forward to. Buy the two of you tickets to a museum, the cinema, a concert, whatever. But it doesn’t have to cost money, you can also plan a day at the park with them or say you’re coming over a certain date and binge-watch tv shows or movies with them at home, jam to their favorite music, do beauty masks, paint each other’s nails.
I could go on forever. There is so much you can do. Even the smallest things are immensely appreciated. The only thing I’m telling you to please avoid is just sending a text and have that be it. Even an e-mail is better than that.
But the overall point is, however you do it, please just reach out. It’s not too late. It can save lives.
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